Sixth Entry (October 29th, 2021)

     Today was just an alright day for me. Luckily, I got a lot of rest last night, but I felt mentally and physically exhausted because of my jobs, school, and not getting a lot of sleep for any previous days, so I was pretty worn out by the end of the week. Right now is a busy time for everyone, and I am certainly feeling as if my workload is finally catching up to me. I am able to finish things in a timely manner still, but mentally I have never wished for a break more, so I am trying to push through these last few weeks of school. I was alright for most of the day, and then was a bit moody, but I was able to recognize that I was moody, so I listened to some music and tidied up my room to calm myself down. I also talked about how I was feeling with some friends of mine, and usually I bottle things up, but this project is about taking care of my well-being, so I realized that I should be more transparent about my emotions. I feel that the Superwoman Schema that Black women deal with really has affected my communication skills when it comes to discussing how I feel, and this is something that I am trying to break away from. I was not looking forward to the breathing exercise today because I wanted to go to sleep, but I knew that it would help me in some way, so I did it anyway. It was hard to focus on my breathing today because it was harder to clear my mind, so I do not feel that I was very present in the moment, but I appreciated being able to lay down for once and not do anything. 

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